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Songs inspired by my mother and childhood.

Standing
Line up the empty bottles on your favorite cutting glass.
Take a deep breath in. Does that feeling last?
Watch the moments of pain. Slowly drift away.
Your whole life has past you by. You don’t even realize.

I’m Just standing here in this darkness.
Wondering if you’ll come back home.
Maybe pick up the phone.

I was so young. Yes, I was the innocent one.
I did what ever you pleased just to make you so proud of me.
But now I’ve grown up. I’ve felt the pain of my cuts.
My whole life has past you by. You don’t even realize. 

I’m Just standing here in this darkness.
Wondering if you’ll come back home.
Maybe pick up the phone. 

Did you ever think that things would be the same?
How could you let things go on this way?
Never could my word express me this way.
Please don’t cry. Save that for another day. 

I’m Just standing here in this darkness.
Wondering if you’ll come back home.
Maybe pick up your phone.

Give You
Hey where are you going?
Please don’t leave me here for too long.
Vicious cycle in motion.
In your eyes you can do no wrong. 

And I watch you drink away your life
Just like your Father you cannot swallow your pride 

Hey you take a moment
Maybe I can comprehend
Tell me your story
I’ll listen till the very end 

And I watch you drink away your life
Just like your Father you cannot swallow your pride 

If you can’t talk
I’ll give up trying
I’ll walk on by and
Wash my hands and no more
Crying about you
That’s the last straw I’ll ever
Give you
I’ll give you
I’ll give you.

Embrace
She said, “This hurt me more then it hurts you.”
But I’m the one forced to wear this badge of black and blue
Cutting through the air it crashes down
Deep breath in and swallow don’t make a sound

Let the blood run down my face
I no longer feel the pain.
Stood my ground in her embrace
Feeling numb and far away

So far away

I pick myself up from the cold hard floor
Dust myself off head straight for the door
I hear her shouting, “Come back here like a man!”
I do the right thing I don’t take a chance.

Let the blood run down my face
I no longer feel the pain.
Stood my ground in her embrace
Feeling numb and far away

So far away

I never told anybody
Never did I expose her
But now I have this pen and paper
My fear was her greatest power

Let the blood run down my face
I no longer feel the pain.
Stood my ground in her embrace
Feeling numb and far away

So far away